Be silent

I have been struggling to sleep lately. Maybe because there are so many decisions weighing on me; maybe it's a matter of trust. I'm not sure what - but every time I go to lay down, my mind just swirls and swirls. The Lord gave me a verse the other night and I have pondered on it ever since. "In your anger do not sin: when you are on your beds, search your hearts and be silent." Psalm 4:4. Both of these sections are relevant to my state of mind. How thankful I am that the Lord led me to this little nugget.

Our pastor has been doing a wonderful series on Perspective and believe me, I need it. During this time the Lord has also been dealing with my pride. When I am able to see how small I am in comparison to this vast universe God created, I realize how insignificant I am. Yet God loves me and directs me. How selfish I am to believe I can do anything apart from Him.

One of the pictures our pastor showed today is from the spaceship Voyager as it traveled out into the universe, it turned around and took a picture. That tiny little dot highlighted in white is our planet Earth. The only reason it was picked up on film was because of the sun's rays hit it at just the right time. What an awesome God we serve!

Who am I to think that anything I do is important? Who am I to think that anything I create is original? Who am I to think I can do all things by myself? Who am I to think that God has parented me enough and I am strong enough to set out on my own? Even the slightest breath I take is only because He has allowed it to be.