Resolutions are harder than they look....

Ok, so when I posted the other day about changing my negative behavior, little did I know how quickly I would be challenged on it. Negative thoughts are something I battle daily; some days I win, some days I don't. Yesterday bounced between the two, eventually landing safely somewhere in the middle. My husband's doctor's office called yesterday and the only message they would give me was for my husband to call them. He had blood work done last week, so I was sure this was the results. My thoughts immediately swayed from "it must be bad and that's why she won't tell me" to "it's a privacy thing, laws and such. I have to respect it - even if I am HIS WIFE!". So I called my husband and relayed the message, to which his response was "Ok." "Weird". After hanging up the phone with me, my husband called his doctors office, got the information and then called me back. Here is where I wonder why God created males the way He did. The first 2 minutes of the conversation were all the things that showed up ok - kidneys, liver, and whatever else it was he said. To be honest I wasn't paying much attention - I couldn't hear over the loud voice in my head screaming "GET TO THE POINT - WHAT ARE YOU DYING OF!" He finally got around to mentioning his cholesterol. "Ok, good" I thought. "It's not cancer. So what is it then?" I'm still thinking to myself. "Angioplasty, stint, transplant......just spill it". It turns out that he is fine. Better than fine actually, he's great. Because he changed his diet and started working out, his cholesterol has dropped significantly. My husband is not overweight at all, but he didn't like the way he felt after our vacation (neither did I but that hasn't stopped me from eating!). He started eating fruit instead of fries and kept his portions low. He's done a great job. Now that I know he is not dying, I am proud of him. But yesterday was just another example of those days where I say to myself "why did my thoughts even go there?" And even more so, how do I stop them? That's the question I keep trying to answer.