Friday, December 5, 2008

I want it and I want it NOW!!!

I am an instant gratification kinda girl. If I work out - one day - I expect to see immediate results. If I eat a salad, my thighs had better be smaller. When I pray, thy will be done...and so on. I'm not this way when it comes to clothes - if I see something I like, I don't buy it all that often. I do have a budget you know. But when it comes to food, and my weight, I have this very unhealthy attitude. So imagine my excitement when I joined Weight Watchers a month ago. My weight has taken a nasty turn this last year....like the last time I put on this much weight in a year I had a living, breathing soul living in me. That's not the case this year - or any year hereafter. So I joined and was psyched! I lost 4.8 pounds in the first week. Then week 2 hit and, well, not such good numbers. Week 3, even worse. Week 4, yikes. I told my husband I was ready to quit. At this rate I was paying $10 a pound......I can buy lobster cheaper than that! He laughed at me (we've been together 22 years......he knows how I am). But I was serious. I was doing everything they told me too. I mean, for crying out loud, I had lunch with a friend at the Cheesecake Factory the other day and I ordered a salad. A SALAD I TELL YOU!!! AND NO CHEESECAKE! I expect to see some serious fat coming off for that kind of sacrifice. Still, nothing. So here I am, a few pounds lighter, a bank account with a few less dollars in it, and me - disappointed. Very disappointed. Why am I like this? Do I really think I am 16 again and if I skip a meal or two my jeans are going to loosen up? Maybe that's it. I just can't accept I am getting older....and fatter....and my metabolism is slowing down. My body just doesn't respond the way it used to. I tell ya, this stinks. I would feel better if I were growing more mature with age and that was the trade off - but I'm not (as you can tell by the title of my post). So I've decided I'm going to give it a few more weeks, ramp up my work outs, and resign myself to the fact that I am older and this is going to take a little longer....or it may never come off. I'm open to suggestions if anyone has any. Anyone have a magic pill or something?

2 comments:

Jen said...

You look fabulous even if the scale isn't showing it fast enough.

Anonymous said...

No, no magic pill here....and boy have I been searching for it! I've been doing WW for 15 mos., so let me know if you ever want a WW buddy! Just remember: it's a marathon, not a sprint!