Derailed

I've struggled to write this post over the last several days. Actually, I have struggled to write anything at all the last week! The last several weeks I have struggled spiritually. I feel far away from the Lord I love, I have no desire to read my Bible and to pray. I've even struggled to complete my bible study homework. I can look back on my life and see the times I have felt like this. Normally something major happens and instead of digging in my heels and praying through it, I grow distant and want to control things myself. "God's not working fast enough" I can hear myself saying. Trust dims and I revert back to sin. We've had a lot going on the last several months - house up for sale, job changes, sickness....so much sickness. It's still nothing compare to what a few of my friends are going through, but that doesn't negate the struggle I have been having. I guess this is a confession of sorts, but I'm wondering what derails you? What gets you back on track? For me, I am thankful I have the involvement of bible study, MOPS and church commitments. These things are boundaries that keep me in check. Even when I don't feel like it, I have to do these things. Even if I don't feel like praying, I am in the presence of someone who does. We all go through times when we feel distant to God. Thankfully, when we seek Him out, He's always there.