Saying Yes

We had the honor of having Lysa TerKeurst, President of Proverbs 31 speak at our MOPS group last night. What a wonderful evening! She had us laughing and crying and for me personally, she was yet another reminder of what God can do through you when you just say yes to Him. I've been a part of this MOPS group for 4 years and on the steering team for 2. My husband had the unique opportunity to hear me start the meeting off last night; he has never seen one of these meetings before and I wasn't aware he was there until I finished. When I got home, he said how proud he was of me, and amazed at how much I have changed. God has changed me and it all started with a simple act of obedience. When I hated living in my neighborhood, God pressed upon me to start a neighborhood bible study. "No, Lord" was my response. For 6 months I argued with him. I prayed he would move in the neighborhood, or move me out of it. Little did I know he wanted to use me to move in the neighborhood. I finally answered the call and the girls in my study are such a blessing to me. I love them. After arguing with the Lord on this point, when he asked me again to do something, I immediately answered. This time it was MOPS. He wanted me to call the coordinator at the time and ask to help. Now, this is a group that up to this point I had felt out of place. I wasn't really sure I was going to come back. But I called and that simple phone call started a chain of events that not only made me coordinator one year later, it also brought me new loving and supportive friends that have changed my life. Bringing us back to last night. If you could have been inside my head a year ago, you would never have believed I was that person last night. I don't know how much of my anxiety showed last year, but it paralyzed me in many areas. It was hard enough for me to carry on a conversation with one girl in the back of the room. No way was I going up in front of the room to speak! But God has worked in me. I now have the confidence to lead our school in prayer, our MOPS meetings and anything else he asks of me. It doesn't mean I don't get butterflies in my stomach any more, I do. But the initial fear is just that - initial, and then I press on. Last night was a true testament to what He can do when we say yes. I may be afraid at times, but I'd rather be afraid and say yes, than miss out on the tremendous blessing if I were to say no.